If you noticed in this picture i’m holding a stick of cigarette. And I know it’s a NO NO. If my yoga teacher could see me now, she’d be like “Cheryl, get in the hot room now!”. I know. I shouldn’t be smoking. It’s bad for the skin. It makes us grow and look more old.
I need to detoxify!
I’ve been drinking and smoking for the past few weeks. Probably because I’m stressed with a lot of stuff. So I decided to unwind and loosen up.
A lot has happened in the past few days. And I am quite surprised about the series of events that that I don’t know if I should be ashamed of myself or just treat it as one of those “phases” that you go through your life. People around me said I should be more open minded about some things. And I should accept that we are living in a world full of crap. And that I shouldnt be all innocent and should know these things. Some people said that they think probably i’m just around people who think differently and view the world in a negative way. Some friends told me I need to go back to God and repent for my sins and I need to put my acts together.
I am just so confused about LIFE right now. But the scariest part of those things that transpired in me was that I enjoyed all of it. I defintely did.
I know i’m not making any sense. And my mind is all jumbled.
In short, i’m like 50 Shades fucked up.
Don’t worry, i’m still pretty much SANE.
I can still write in my blog.
I’m still functioning properly.
And I still have people around me who will definitely look out for me.
I AM SAFE.
50 Shades Cheryl?